Too many leaks, can't be saved

It's worth noting I suck at poker. I went into last night with a plan, executed perfectly, tilted, lost a lot of money :) And alcohol was involved too :(

So, pretty tired, but fairly focused, I made a goal to clear 100 FTP points and get my Silver medal Iron Man, and call it quits. I did make a goal to play as well as anything by then and be up hopefully. I also figured I couldn't just "stop" if I was playing well, so I was going to then crack open a drink or two and donk off on some ultra low stake, maybe even on pokerstars.

So my plan started better than expected. At time of clearing the points, I was up over $250, and back to even over the last week or so, which has been a roller coaster. It was really just no sick hands. I didn't suck out or even hit draws after getting it in, I was usually just getting it in good or as a coin flip, and getting it my way, mostly me getting it in good. There is a certain element of luck in getting it in good as well of course, as some of the hands, I would have played the same if I held the villains hand.

Anyway, I stuck to my word, cracked open a beer and remembered what I loved about poker. I played a bit of NL25, which was a little higher than what I'd meant by ultra low stake, but the games were fairly fun. There wasn't a lot of big action, but I lost about 2BI's due to mainly a couple of big cooler spots. I felt I played OK.

Officially calling it quits on serious poker, I started donking on PS. I played a couple of 18 man SNG's, but really I wanted to play HU still, so went in some $5 4 man SNG's. I played way too aggro, so double the stakes to get back my lost BI's and won that one. I doubled again and lost, so doubled again (probably not really double anymore) to $50, my normal stake. I played 2 there and lost, and a third and won, but all three I was getting it in good and getting punished for it. This was the start of tilt. I'm not anywhere near rolled for $50 SNG's on stars, so I decided to go back to FTP and try a couple. I did and lost, then saw a -15% ROI player at the $100 table, lost to him, twice. All the time getting unbelievable suckouts and coolers against me. JJ-KK may as well be fold PF, because every A2-A7 hand that gets it in with me hits an ace like clockwork. Also FTP turned all coins into one sided coins, making it impossible to hold on with 99 vs QJ or hit anything with KQ vs 66. I played mostly -10% or worse ROI players, but still managed to exploit them and get beaten. That is I'd get it in with top two pair against their lone flush draw on the turn, and still get beaten by a flush.

So. The net result is I'm down a lot today. That session netted 1 win out of the last 8 SNG's, including a couple of $100, of which I feel I only badly misplayed a couple of hands all up. It has completed the feelings that were building up, which is I'm sick of poker. this has been the whinge post, wait a few minutes for the next post which will be far more interesting describing where poker goes from here.