Lack of self control

Had a pretty rotten run of self control. I firstly played a bit of 6 max, and am very happy with how in depth I can analyse situations now. However, my notetaking needs to be refined. Firstly, I need to reduce it to only relevant points. Things like how they bluff, how they play monsters, how they play weakly made hands etc, not so much of the less important things. Also I need to think more generically. Rather than writing "Raised ATs, double barrelled K446dd, gave up on turn", I need to be more general. I need to think this through, but maybe "Double barrelled dry flop with Ace high." Then I need to cut this down in size in a way that's not to difficult to understand like "DB DF A high"?? OK, something along those lines. I was even contemplating starting every notes with a simple list of important things to help analyse, like "Slowplays monster???" where I can keep these in a low section and have a high section when I see it actually happen. Or maybe just keep a notepad open in the background which shows all the things I should be looking out for, and copy paste when I see one happen. Anyway, results wise, I took a hit to about -$15 on a loose table, but ended up profiting $5 before quitting to play HU.

HU started well, finding a real gem of a player, but I ended up just taking his small stack and not making much after rake. I then played another short stack who reloaded. We got that 2nd stack in with AK vs K4, but he sucked out and continued to run over me. I got hands, but either got insta folds, or came up 2nd best whenever he stayed on. I didn't feel outclassed, but was tilting, so I quit, down about $30 in the end to be about breakeven for the night. I then played two players I've labelled as good. One was betting over pot for everything, but I just never got there in the bigger pots. I must admit I felt a bit lost in this situation, because I'd be committing half a BI to see a river, and went that far with the worst hands, and probably folded the best hand sometimes due to extreme pressure. It took a while to quit this, as I was really hoping to just hit a hand against his aggressive bets one time, but when I did get the hand I wanted, he sucked out on the river, and I had to quit it. Down $60. The other guy played much more regular bet sizes, but was aggressive PF and on the flop, and again made it difficult to play my normal game. I ended up calling too many 3 bets, and generally making some mistakes, and quit down about $35.

All up at this stage I was sitting about $100 down for the day, and had downed a couple of beers, which had started to effect me I think. I started on a 3rd, and noticed one last player to conquer. He was sitting with $130, and I thought I'd see if that was a permanent thing, or whether he luckboxed it. I called him down early on and won, and from there he seemed to just tilt off stack after stack, until I was up to over $100 and he was below $60. From here he made a bit of a comeback, which turned into a nasty time for me. I'd had one more beer, was started to play too loose, and found my way back to $45 at one point. I decided to grind it out a bit more and eventually found my way back to about $70 which felt good, and this hand happened.

I raised with 97o. He was 3 betting a lot and I was calling a lot given the implied odds, but he flatted here. Flop is T86r, for the nutz thank you very much. I cbet as usual and he calls, very standard, we were floating each other a lot. He checks a 5, I continue with a $4, he raises to $11. I have the nutz still, and can easily put him on a hand like a set/2 pair, maybe even a 74 which I crush. I decide he's going to have to pay this time if he wants to continue, so I make it $34 and he calls. At this point I'm praying the board doesn't pair, and a Q hits. No flush, no boat. J9 got there, but I'm not checking behind here and ship for $37 more, and he calls with T5. $147 HU pot (490BB)!!!

I got him down low enough that he had to reload, after holding at least $130 stack at one point. He made a bit back before I quit, but I finished up enough to get back all my losses and a bit.

Still the lack of discipline was annoying. I figured I'd have a couple of drinks while watching some TV, but my mind slipped and I found myself playing poker instead. I don't think I played badly, but it couldn't have been as good as I could have. I hope to make some real inroads into this mentality this weekend and next couple, and will be again out of poker somewhat the weeks after that.