OK, this is the last step for me. I feel like I'm working hard at crushing the game, and still donking off dollars while drunk. My long weekend started innocently enough losing about $20 having some fun on Pokerstars, which was mostly intended. I stopped and didn't intend to play again, but a couple of drinks later Full Tilt is up, and $20 more gone. Next night, watching a movie (new Indiana Jones) and the wife falls asleep. Again a couple of dinner and post dinner drinks downed, I open up Full Tilt just to "watch", the intention being to try and hand read while not actually playing. I'm looking for a tight table to see how well I read regs, and I notice the perfect seat on a real donkish table...and I'm there. NL50 while drunk and underolled, nice. Another $30 to donks hitting, and I finish it off by busting (just about) my Pokerstars account which had $50 before the weekend. OK, so now I'm down $120 all up for just playing a bit of poker while drunk. WTF!!!! That takes me weeks of EV at NL25, what a waste.
Last night was a good chance to have a couple of drinks due to a long weekend, but I decided I need to choose between drinks and poker, and poker won out at first, with the intention of staying up late and having a couple of drinks later. I grinded for a little over an hour, and was pretty happy with my play, and booked a 1.5BI profit, somewhat helping the mood after donking while drunk. Absolutely through with drinking poker, I cracked open a drink and noticed I still had $3 in my pokerstars account. I decided to go out with a bang and play it as aggro as I could. Tripled it on NL5, then HU SNG's. Grinded, grinded, grinded, drank, drank, drank. I couldn't lose. I got in good just about all the time, and held almost always. I was also extracting value like nothing else, getting people to hand over their entire SNG with top pair no kicker on the first blind level. A heap of fun. Up to $47 again, lol.
So that's it now. Poker is officially a serious hobby now rather than a pastime, as I can't stomach the losses I have when not in full control. So this week and weeks/months going forward are all about one main leak fix. Self control. I want to be able to pick and choose when I play. If I'm not reading boards well, quit. If I'd drunk, don't ever play anything, there is just no point. If I'm tired and need to stop, stop. I want to actually write how I am feeling before I play. If I'm tilted or tired, I want to identify that before playing, and just go read forums or do something else for a while. There are no more excuses in my game now. I don't want to not have a reason for making a play, and certainly playing tired or tilted or drunk help you ignore decision making.
I feel very pumped about this, as we are talking playing while in good mood, my play is constantly improving anyway, and I feel like I've officially made the right mental moves to control a big leak in my game.
As a side task, I still need to do a lot more hand reading. My reading is kind of like my hand is this good, and he'd have to have one of these hands to have me beat. I'm not saying, what is his likely full range just yet. So my moves are all about protecting my hand or maximising it's value, rather than fully maximising value by knowing what he'd have and how he'd react to my moves given his range and tendancies. I'm getting there though. Also I'm working extra hard looking through hand histories to pickup how people play post flop, and I think ideally I need to simplify this. So when I have a tilted or tired moment, I'm going to work on a program to help get reads from PT3, which seems to be running again somehow.
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